WastelandFlower's Xanga

bang bang

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 03:18:01 GMT

This place is dead.

This is my home now.

Perfect

Thu, 16 Nov 2006 03:08:45 GMT

"Sick of circling the same road
And sick of bearing the guilt
So open the windows to cool off
And heat pours in instead

All my efforts to clean me
Leave me putrid and filthy
And how can You look at me
When I can't stand myself?

Perfect in weakness
I'm only perfect in just Your strength alone
Perfect in weakness
I'm only running in just Your strength alone"

God helped me to fight today. I couldn't have made it through the day on my own, but He gave me the strength, and now I stand victorious.

Our God, my Father, is awesome. There really are no words. He is... awesome. I love my Father.

In the stillness You are there

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 19:28:02 GMT

Many of you, this will not apply to, but I just wanted to ask for a break about all things dealing with me and my supposed "love life" for a while. Truth is, I've managed to lose myself in this crowd of voices around me, telling me all these things, and I just can't seem to find God's will through it all. It's not that I don't want to hear your opinions, I'm just really confused, and when everyone is saying something different.... it's not helping. So, please, just give me some time to get my head on straight. If you want to do something for me, then pray for me. I'm probably sounding hypocritical saying this, and I'm sorry if I've made you feel this way, but I just need some silence. I need peace.

Thanks, guys. Love you.

What good is love when it keeps on hurting me...

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 03:17:37 GMT

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out all fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." -1 John 4:18

You know what?

I'm afraid.

A house ain't a home

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 01:52:09 GMT

Back in Linwood.

Poo.

I'm off center. I have managed to thouroughly confuse myself about God's will. I say something, and it turns out to be something else. I guess I should just keep my mouth shut until I know for sure.

Waiting. It's all I've got right now.

Haha

Sat, 04 Nov 2006 18:52:23 GMT

What is it about poetry...

...that makes nobody want to comment?

I'm getting tired of xanga. Of course, I'm not feeling very patient today. Maybe that will change.

Never Stop Loving

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 01:32:24 GMT

I drive and listen to a song
Played on the radio
She sings of holding onto love
And never letting go
And on and on the songs just play
All with one common theme
All are stories of these people
Trying to find meaning

They connect with me so deeply
I'm trying to find it too
What is the point of this cold life?
What good does living do?
I've sung so many songs like these
But I have changed my part
Since my innocence was stolen
Leaving a broken heart

One song says I should live my life
By taking every chance
One claims the risk isn't worth it
And warns me in advance
That love will cause me so much pain
But this I know quite well
I gave my love so many times
And love put me through hell

But living life without love is
Like baking with no heat
And I'm so tired of standing on
This cold and lonely street
Somehow, despite the fear, I've got
To give love endlessly
And maybe someday it will find
It's way right back to me

No more car.

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 22:41:18 GMT

Bummer.

Radiant

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 00:28:14 GMT

I sought the LORD, and He answered me;
He delivered me from all my fears.
Those who look to Him are radiant;
Their faces are never covered with shame.
This poor man called, and the LORD heard him;
He saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear Him
And He delivers them.
Taste and see that the LORD is good;
Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
Fear the LORD, you His saints,
For those who fear Him lack nothing.
-Psalm 34:4-9

Just think about what that passage means. Right now, take out a piece of paper and write down what you can pull out of it. Do not do anything else until you're done.

Got it?

Now put it to use. I don't know about you, but I'd love to be called radiant. I'd love to have no shame. I'd love to be saved from all my troubles. I'd love to have an army of angels surrounding me. I'd love to lack nothing.

And guess what? I do.

When I seek my Lord, He answers. When I look to Him, He sees me and calls me radiant; He does not see me covered in shame. When I cry out, He saves me. When I taste Him, I see that He is good. When I take refuge in Him, I am blessed. Because I fear Him, I am completely safe. Because I fear Him, He delivers me. Because I fear Him, I lack nothing.

That's how big my Daddy is. That's how much He loves me, even though I don't deserve it. How awesome is that? I love my Daddy.

"I love my Father
My Father loves me
I dance for my Father
My Father sings over me
And nothing, nothing, nothing can take that away from me."

It don't take a word

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 23:18:42 GMT

Yes, I watched it again. Hence, the layout based on my fav song from the movie.

"There you see her, sitting there across the way
She don't got a lot to say but there's something about her
And you don't know why but you're dying to try
You wanna kiss the girl

Yes, you want her; look at her, you know you do
Possible she wants you too, there is one way to ask her
It don't take a word, not a single word
Go on and kiss the girl

Sha, la, la, la, la, la
My, oh my, looks like the boy's too shy
He ain't gonna kiss the girl
Sha, la, la, la, la, la
Ain't that sad? Ain't it a shame? Too bad
He's gonna miss the girl

Now's your moment, floating in a blue lagoon
Boy, you'd better do it soon, no time will be better
She don't say a word and she won't say a word
Until you kiss the girl

Sha, la, la, la, la, la
Don't be scared, you got the mood prepared
Go on and kiss the girl
Sha, la, la, la, la, la
Don't stop now, don't try to hide it how
You wanna kiss the girl

Whoa, whoa

Sha, la, la, la, la, la
Float along and listen to the song
The song say, 'Kiss the girl'
Sha, la, la, la, la, la
Let the music play, do what the music say
You gotta kiss the girl

Kiss the girl
Kiss the girl
You gotta kiss the girl
Go on and kiss the girl"